Sunday, September 02, 2007

What do you pack?

This seems so trivial...but I am so consumed by emotion that this seems like the one thing I can focus on. What do you pack when you are headed to what might be the last week of someone's life? My grandpa is 84. He's been aging quickly this past year. Until this year you would have thought he was in his 70's. Wednesday found him in the ER, and then in the hospital, and today he took a turn for the worse. Now my whole family, including us, are on our way to see him. It might be the end for him. I'm not ready for this. I'm not ready to let him go. I'm not ready to say goodbye. I am so angry. This isn't how life should work.

And I keep going back to my suitcase wondering what the hell I'm supposed to pack.

4 comments:

Jen said...

Hang in there.

DiaryDad said...

I don't think that there is a way to adequately prepare for a trip like this. I can not express my condolences enough. Whatever you need I hope you know am here for you.

Terina said...

camera. and a journal. your kids will need to read and see this sometime in their life.

Ms. Liz said...

some comfy slipers, chocolate, kleenex and a dication machine. I understand though. We got the "Grandma is dying come now" call in March and I was a mess then too. You're on the prayer list.